I have heard so many songs,
Listened to a thousand tougues,
But there is one that sounds above them all;
The Father's song, the Father's love-
You sung it over me, and for eternity
It's written on my heart.
Heaven's perfect melody,

The Creator's symphony,
You are singing over me
The Father's song.
Heaven's perfect mystery-
The King of Love has sent for me,
And now You're singing over me
The Father's song.
~Matt Redman

Wow...The Lord loves me. I always knew that, but today the Lord really showed me that He loves me. I have mentioned about the freedom that the Lord has been teaching me about. But in order to fully understand this freedom, there is still a lot of "cleaning up" to do, which ofcuz takes a lot of time. The Lord is giving me a new heart, which means that everything of the past must come to an end. Throughout this time, the Lord has been breaking my heart, bits and pieces of my old heart. He has been tearing apart my heart, my life, and to be honest, it's making me bleed and it hurts. But the most incredible thing is that, throughout this whole time, eventhough God is freeing me bit by bit, He has also reassured me of His love for me. I felt His love tonite, I felt the presence of the Lord. I felt His arms around me telling me that it's okay and that He loves me. The first time in my whole Christian walk, I was overwhelmed with joy for who He is and not so much of what He has done or my guilt or whatsoever... The Lord said, "Be still and know that I am God." He does not say, " Be still and know my will for you.." But He said Be still and Know me. Isn't that cool??? Isn't that what we all need to do? To come before the Lord, and acknowledge Him for who He is. And praise and and worship Him for who He is. I really like the song by Matt Redman. It is from Zephaniah 3:17, "The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Wow...God loves us so much that He'll rejoice in us over singing. isn't that like amazing?...God loves you so much that He's probably singing right now about you and me....:)....WOW!!!

I love you Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship you
All my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what you hear
May it be a sweet, sweet sound
In your ear

How amazing it is to know that the Lord does not comand us to do something when He does not think that we can do it. I mean, He commands us to be holy and to never sin again because He knows that we are capable of doing so. So why then do we live our lives thinking that it is impossible?? I used to think this way, that I can strive for His commands for me, but never really believing that i could do it as long as I'm in this body, which is of the flesh. But the Lord told me that they are all lies from Satan, all the guilt and fear. God told me that I am born of Him and that I can go on without sinning. He means it literally that I cannot go on sinning and He knows that I can do it because I am now made into a new creation. That is the most amazing thing about God's grace, that He died not only to wash away our sins, but also that our sinful nature may die with Him on the cross so that we can raise again as a new creation. Not to just wash away our past, but to make us anew!!! I mean, how cool is that????
I also find it amazing that His words, or His will for me is not far away so that I have to seach for His "signs". This is the freedom He has given me, that I, who has died to the sinful nature, can live my life without fear or sin because I am now a new creation who is born of the Spirit and that I can trust myself, yeah!!!...i can trust myself. I do not need to live a life in fear of sinning or scare of every move I make in fear that it would not be pleasing to the Lord. The Lord told me that it's okay, I can trust myself for He has put His law in my mind and wirte it on my heart. "Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven, so that you have to ask, "Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?" Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, "Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it" No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it." ~Deuteronomy 30:11-14 Isn't that amazing?? God is so good!!! And He does not only offer this freedom to me, but to all who believes in Him and is born again into a new creation.
Anyways, i hope that's not too much considering that it is my kidda first "real" post!!!! but these are all the thoughts that are running in my head now!!!

Oh my gosh....i pressed the wrong button, the big long note that i wrote is all gone......bah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!