another thing.....please go to my friend, sonja's, site and read her testimony!!!

To sonja: Yes..i agree!!!...and i totally rejoice with you!!!..i am so happy that you know..!!!! AHHHH!!!...:)

in the old testament, no one was permitted to enter the Holy of Holies except the high priest, and that was only once a year!

but when Jesus died...
.."And the curtain of the temple was torn in two.."

What is the veil?
-it is our flesh, our sins and everything that seperates us from God.
but where is the veil now?
-And the curtain of the temple was torn in two...it's gone, it has been torn long ago!! it is finished...praise God! When Jesus died, the veil was torn!!! our old self was torn and our sins are torn. What seperates us from God? our sins....but it is TORN!!!! so that their may be no barrier in between us and God!!!..isn't that great!! Praise God!!!

knowing that, I woke up today with such great joy in my heart, i kept thinking about the veil and how it was torn when Jesus died!!! isn't that cool? "...that we may have confidence to enter the holiest by the blood of Jesus.." cool! nothing we do can torn it apart, but only by the blood of Christ, and it is done and over with!!!...yeah, we're dead!!!...but Christ is alive in us!!!....:)

"What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? But no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?......For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, and we should no longer be slaves to sin-because anyone who has died has been freed from sin...." ~Romans 6:3-6 did you notice that it is written in past tense? we died...was crucified....who has died....:) IT IS FINISHED!!!

-anyways...stay tune, cuz i wanna talk about His resurrection too, the part of the Gospel where we should focus on more!!!

Good Friday
-joy, joy, and even more joy!!!

this is what my friend tiff wrote to me:

hey cora...it was sunny and warm at the beginning of the week...then it started to get cloudy...then it rained wednesday and yesterday...i thought of you and how you told me that for the past few Good Fridays it has rained...i'm thinking it just might rain again today....so cool. =0)

"It was now about the sixth hour, and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour, for the sun stopped shining. And the curtain of the temple was torn in two."

...and guess what? it's dark and gloomy outside and it's raining....weird!!!....today is Good Friday, my aspects of Good Friday have totally changed ever since i learnd about the reason the Lord has died for us. Hey, if you guys who are out there who think that they have to be sad and gloomy today like what i thought i had to feel like before...don't!!!..because that's not what it is about!!! Jesus' death should be our joy knowing that He has also resurrected!! And knowing that He died to give us Life!!!! And plus, His death didn't last that long....He rose again!!!! Let us be reminded of His death, not just today, but everyday!!!....The Lord Jesus died for us not just to wash away our sins, but to deal will the root of the problem as well....us!!! He died, so that we may die with Him!!!! So when He died, we died. Watchman Nee said: "When the Lord Jesus was on the Cross all of us died-not individually, for we have not yet been born-but being in Him, we died with Him." And guess what? Jesus has ALREADY died....so it's all done and finished!!!!! Hallelujiah!!!!!.......today is a joyful day!!!!!
If you don't know what i mean about us dying with Him...don't fret..:)....read Romans 4-6!!! Personally note: Romans 7 and 8 is good too!!!...hey, but if you read Romans 7, you better read Romans 8 as well and link them together!!!!!!...cuz a lot of people misinterpret Romans 7 when it is by itself!!!!

anyways...i will write some more tonite...i will speak more about the curtain that is torn then...so say tune!!!

another 12 hours at the library today...

-today was good!!..didn't get as much studying as I hoped i would...ah well. I had a little bible study will sonja today in the library. It's so funny, we can't keep ourselves away from the bible...don't get me wrong, it's a good thing. heheh...i think there was a point when i said: "sonja, we gotta stop talking to each other and study!!!" and then sonja replied: "okay, that's easy, we'll just stop opening our bibles!!!"....heheh...i love that girl!

-I was feeling a bit overwhelmed today about exams and university and my program and so forth. After talking to karyn on the phone, i was just sitting there, thinking a bit...and then suddenly what karyn once said came to my mind, "Whether you know it or like it or not, the Spirit of God that is in you is worshipping the Father right now!!!!" and i was like...yeah, this is the real me, this is my nature....not to worry but I have a new spirit that always, and i mean always worships the Father!!!.my nature is to worship my Father..Praise God!!! but i think it's cool, cuz eventhough in my mind i was thinking about it, but my heart was still at peace. The peace was there all along, becuz Christ is peace, i just needed to remind myself that!!!.
-After knowing that i'm freeD i think i'm starting to live out my life in accordance to the freedom that the Lord has already given me!! I'm learning more to trust myself now, eventhough there are times that i need to remind myself that I am a new creation!..but it's cool! "For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ."~1 Cor 2:16. We have the mind of Christ!!!! yeah!!!! Trust yourself!!!

here karyn, I updated today's blog just for you....

We Lost!!!!
-that was such an intense game...3 overtimes!!!...wow, what a game! eventhough we lost, i must say that the leafs did a pretty good job hanging in there!!!...GO LEAFS GO!!!...oh yeah, did you see Belfour tonite?...man he's good!!!....i've decided that Belfour is my hero....he is really really good...too bad cujo, it could have been you!!!..:)

-wow, spent another 12 hours in the library today......man!!! For all the froshies next year, this is university!!!!
-sitting in the library, i was thinking how quickly this year has gone by, i won't be a froshie no more!! i still remember the first day i moved in here, it seems like it was just yesterday...wow, crazy!!.:). Karyn told me that being a second year is the worst, "You're not old enough to pick on the youngies and you're not young enough to be noticed..." hehe, i thought that was pretty funny!
-i was thinking as well how my life have changed so much, i feel like my life have just begun...and i'm so excited!!!!...everything i see is different now, so different!!!! and it's not like the Lord just showed me parts of Him..but He revealed Himself, meaning everything of HIM...i'm freeD..the Lord is good!

There is one thing that is very very important that all christians must know. We must never focus our lives upon "the sins"....God has dealt with that by sending His son. As watchman nee said, "..but God is saying that we should not make redemption to be everything, as though man were created to be redeemed." No! God came not to just cleanse us from our "sins"...yes, that was part of His death, but that is not everything!!! Therefore there is no condemnation, if God doesn't condemn us, then why do we still condemn ourselves???...we must note that Jesus laid down His life, that life emerged in many lives. That is the ultimate goal, that Jesus died so that we may live in a NEW LIFE!!! and this New Life consists of a new spirit and everything of God..and i'm saying, ONLY things that are of God...isn't that amazing? And not just that, but we already have the new life and it is not by our work, and will never be by our works.. Praise God because I already have all the characteristics of God because it is Christ that is living it out for me!! We are no longer slaves, so stop living as if you are still a slave!!!! "Formerly, when you did not know God, you were slaves to those by nature are not gods. But now that you know God-or rather are known by God-how is it that you are turning back to those weak and miserable principles? Do you wish to be enslaved by them all over again?"
"His purpose was to create in himself one new man out of the two, thus making peace, and in this one body to reconcile(re-conciliation: before we were meant to be with Him) both of them to God through the cross, by which he put to death their hostility." one new man!!!!...,us and Christ=One new man!!!!. Wow!!! God is so Good...!!!!...AHHHHH!!!...

-currently a bit tired...spent more than 12 hours in the library today...feeling a bit overwhelmed with exams( I feel like i dont' know anything)...
-but besides all that studying, something louder speaks in my heart....

God is sooo good....

-did you know that we are no longer slaves, but daughers and sons.....do you know that slaves do not have the same privileges as sons and daughters. sons and daughters can inherit what the Father owns. And we are sons and daughters, we are heirs, so that we may recieve the full rights of sons. The full rights of sons...we have the right to claim what the Lord has already given to us in Christ...which is everything that the Lord has and is. isn't that just so cool. We can call our Lord our Father. Our Father...yeah!
-This freedom is spreading, the good news is spreading among ACFers and i know that this is what God wants...i mean, if you were there in the library today, you will know what i'm talking about....it's like 4 different groups of people talking about the same thing. and then suddenly you hear, "ohh..i think i know", or "i wanna know more..." God is so good.
-i'm full of this unspeakable joy right now......and my only respond is "Praise God...Hallelujiah...!!! I love you Lord!!!"

first thing first...before i forget..:).... Happy Birthday Erica-ca-ca!!!!....wow big two 0!!!!...you're not a teen no more..!!!..:)

GO LEAFS GO....leading the series 2-1...YEAH!!!!...tonite was intense...it was like a 4 hours game....2 overtimes....crazy...so much for studying..!!!

seriously, i'm not getting any studying done. i feeling a bit stress....ahhhh.....no one can get studying done in weldon, cuz everyone is there. i mean, today i kept reading the bookS and sharing it with sonja.....work=zero. learning from school=zero. failing exams=probably. if i get kicked out from university, i don't care, i'm still coming back....this place is too awesome.

but then again, i'll never trade anything for those small talks i had with people in the library.:)...God is still SOOOOoooOOOo Good. today was good, although i didn't get much done.....however, God spoke to me in so many different ways. and it's cool, cuz when i was reading the bible,utmost, and normal christian life.....i kept repeating the same line to myself..."YES...i KNOW....I AGREE..IT"S SO TRUE!!!"....i'm so excited....and so i conclude that today was a good day...even though i didn't study much...:)

"For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory." "You used to walk in these ways....since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator."....past tense!!!!...it's been done

Cease Striving!!!!
Oswald Chambers agrees with me too or more like i agree with him too..heheh, "God's life in us expresses itself as God's life, not as human life trying to be godly."

yeah....19..finally!!

i'm glad...cuz to think back to the last birthday...(we always do that, well, at least i do)....i see how much i've changed. i mean, just the concept of "birthday" changed in my heart. no expectations this year. not wanting to be all about me. everything was different, my heart was so glad that this birthday was not like any other "birthdays" i had in the past. i have changed a lot. and the best part is....I LOVE IT!!!

let me tell you a bit of what happened on my birthday:
-well yesterday, we went to Rockwaters...we had yummy ribs and watched a movie. "how to lose a guy in 10 days.."
-after dinner, they(my friends) got me a piece of cake and they sang happy birthday, but that wasn't it, they got the "piano guy" to sing happy birthday as well. i thought that was cool.
-today, (my actual birthday), i went to church, then had lunch with friends and then went to study at weldon.
-after that, i went to Roger's and Pam's for bible study...like what i do every Sunday. At the end of the meeting, they got me two huge cakes and we celebrated again.
-oh yeah...i got a huge rock as a present...painted...it says C-19 on it...heheh...it was so heavy. And i also got other presents..like a book from sonja, picture frame with picture from jesse, and another picture frame with pictures inside from glen, jus, caleb, and cho...hehe..Thankx guys.

This past week has been full of JOY and JOY and more JOY. I had a privileged to witnessed this week the greatness of my Father and to see Him move so evidently in someone's life. i saw with my very own eyes, my brother in Christ, finally "knowing" this freedom. The power that the Lord has over someone's heart is so great and evident that we can't deny His love. Isn't that incredible? Tonite was really really amazing...to see three people coming to know and so much more wanting to know. And I KNOW that they will know. All this knowing...hehehe. But God is so AWESOME...so AMAZING. He is my father, and praise God that I am His daughter. And this sonship is not just for me....but for EVERYONE who believes in HIM. PRAISE GOD!!!! We are no longer slaves, but daughters and sons..when we weak, we are VERY strong.!!!!....if the son has set you free, you SHALL be free INDEED!!!....duh!!!!!...hhehehheeh.....this, i would say, is the best birthday present ever!!!!!!!!.....and you know, it's gonna keep coming...i'm expecting God to do more...He is gonna give people a new heart and to reveal to them that HE HAS DONE IT ALREADY!!!!!.....yea...CEASE STRIVING!!! praise God!!!!

-oh yeah...gotta thank bessy for teaching me how to change the colors and the font size for this page.....