HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY WOOOO!!!!!! you're finally as old as me.:)

i hope you know that you're special, well because you are!!! :) thank you so much for such being you-- well, sometimes the real you can get a bit crazy!!! :) but thats why you're sooo coooll!!! thank you for the time and effort you've put into pneumatos this past years, and thanks for your continually obedience to the Lord-- for it has blessed me soooooo much!!! you're heart and passion for Him is soo evident!! so continue on!!! on your birthday, i hope you'll have a good one. Know and Reckon that you you are special to the Lord and to those whom He has put around you-- like ME. and many others who can attest to that!! :)

How Great is Our God.

Our God is B.I.G!!! Passion toronto was AWESOME-- not so much because of the passion team or the event itself (even though the team was great), but because God was there that night to meet with His people. I will never forget 4500+ believers from different ethnicity crying out to One God: "Father, we will NOT lift up our souls to another. O God let us be a generation that seeks!!!" Louie Giglio spoke about the prayers that were lifted up in Ricoh Coliseum during toronto's 100 yrs anniversary. Politicans and authorities at the time prayed Is. 62 to God, asking Him to bless this city: Toronto will be called ' Sought out, a city not forsaken."

And indeed, the Lord did not forsake this city. Even with all the things that we've allowed-- being so 'liberal' as to accept all that the Lord hates!!! yet, tuesday night was an answer to the prayers that were lifted up to God. The Lord did not forsake us: "this is the generation of those who seek Him" (Psalm 24). We shall run and grow weary. We shall walk and not be faint. For we are a generation who knows that our Lord is strong and mighty. He is mighty in battle.

Giglio said that Our God is big. so why aren't we asking for more when we pray for our campuses. why aren't we dreaming for bigger things?

Last night after fellowship, i felt such a huge burden. I heard again: "More people will you gather. Those who have ears will hear. Those who do not, they will be left behind.. it is time."

Soon later, Carrie, sonja, and I went to UCC to lift up our campus once again to the Lord. I felt such a burden upon my heart. The three of us talked of how we need to unite people and that we cannot stagger. The time is NOW. we cannot dely by moving slowly and hence missing what the Spirit is doing. This is what the Lord showed us:

"The harvest is plentiful, but the labourers are few; therefore beseech the Lord of the harvest to send out labourers into His harvest." (Luke 10:2)

BESEECH the Lord to send out more people. For "Do not say, 'there are yet four months, and then comes the harvest'? Behold, I say to you, lift up your eyes and look on the fields, that they are white for harvest" (John 4:35). Sonja reminded us that indeed we only have four months left of school, we need to stop wasting our time and not delay the work of the Lord. if we ignore Him enough times, we will be left behind.

So whoever is reading this-- the time is NOW. the Lord is moving and we need to jump into the river and say: "God, i want to be where you are." Stop wasting any more time and GO. May His name and Renown truly be the desires of our souls-- that, whatever it takes we will make His name known.

Encouraged by a dear friend of mine, i decided that i need to journal it down. so why not blog it and let people read it? :)

It was an ordinary Saturday night; before heading back to London, she decided that it would be nice to visit her friend Karyn. They converse freely, talking about all that their God is doing in Toronto-the healing of the nation, revival in churches, changes on campuses etc. Being excited of the revival that is happening all around her, she drove back to London that day, feeling a sense of unsettled yearning to see more. This young girl said to her God, "Father, why aren't I seeing all that you have mentioned in ACTS. I want to see more; please father, I want to be obedient. Give me a word, like the one you gave to karyn's pastor; father, i also want a word and follow it through with obedience!"

She cried out again while driving, "Father, I want to see my campus change. I want to see your people being Bold. I want to be obedient."

She then heard a gentle voice, "Seek after me. Pray and seek after me."

As soon as she arrived in London, she called her friend Carrie, who also has a heart for Western, and asked to pray with her that night. Within minutes of praying and crying out to the Lord, the Faithful one who hears finally spoke. He told Carrie that they must immediate walk around campus and boldly pray for more. As they were walking out, this young girl heard from her father, "Boldly ASK! Wait and be obediently. I shall soon give you a word." And surely enough that night, he did.

As these two girls walked out, one of them saw a dead branch. Withered on the ground, she thought nothing of it until the Lord used it to give her a word later on. and that is: "the state of this campus is like this dead branch; apart from the vine, they are dead and can do nothing. But I can raise up the dead and cause them to live."

Soon enough, the Lord gave Carrie a word: "Be bold." he says "A city on a hill cannot be hidden, if you want people to know, you'll have to come out!" Being all excited, Carrie suggested that they should gathered people, all the fellowships, to worship at the Renaissance Square- an elevated platform right in the center of the campus.

Catching the burning fire, this young girl started to imagine how amazing it would be to gather his body and worship!!! As they continue to worship and sing over the campus that night, Carrie decided that Tuesday Nov. 8 would mark a beginning of something great.

So it happened.

The Lord send forth His word, and He provided faith for those who believed.

Sunday Morning. even though there were visible doubts in their hearts, the Lord did not stop in reassuring His authority and dominion on this campus. He reassured these two girls that it was not just "a thought." Sunday morning, they found out that Tues. Nov. 8, a random date they've chosen, was also Passion's intertional day of prayer-uniting all campuses all over the nation and the world to pray for this generation and their respective campuses. Not only that, Sunday night, a blog was sent to both these girls, through many different people, reassuring them that God has ordained this event since the beginning of time-that it was not just some random thing! This blog mentioned people whom, a week ago, worshiped and preached in the middle of their campus through the leading of the Holy Spirit. oh. how encourged these girls were that night. < http://jaesonma.blogspot.com/2005/10/prophetic-worship-apostolic-preaching.html>

Leading up to Tuesday, massive emails were sent out. People everywhere heard about this news. The word on the street between believes on that Monday was: "hey, renaissance square tomorrow, you coming?" It was soo cool. Monday afternoon, the young girl gathered with her, people to pray and cry out at the Renaissance Square. After much prayer and battling, all three of them were assured that the Lord was about to do something sooo great that people wouldn't believe even if they were told.

Above all, the coolest part was the event itself and stories after that. That morning, people gathered around to pray. walking around the concrete beach 7 times, claiming the place for the Lord. Each time they pray, they felt the strongholds of the devil, yet the reassurance of His victory was even greater.

As the event began, it started out to be a bit dry-people were afraid, discourged, self-concious etc. The mightly God started to speak to this group. He reassured them that His words will not return to Him empty, that He who is in their hearts is way bigger than he who is in this world. After much brokenness within the group, people finally started to worship freely. It was one of the most beautiful things she has ever seen.

People walked by, wondering what the heck was going on. Believers disperse themselves all over the concrete beach and started talking to people. Some talked for minutes, some talked for hours. There were people who were really interested, and some who just wanting a debate-but all was good!! That day, those obedient ones who came out, worshipped from 10am-2:00pm. No one in particular was leading, everyone helped out in whatever way they can. oh. the beauty of that sight. the body coming together and working together; each doing their part without any claims of anything-just one desire, to see this campus change and people being saved.

Even cooler stories: His name and renown did not stay within Renaissance Square, but disperse throughout different classrooms that day. One friend said that his classmate asked him if he knew what was going on that day at the Renaissance Square. So this obedient friend started sharing to him about Christ. Furthermore, one brother approached a guy who was standing near the Renaissance Square; without explaining, the guy said that he was not in the mood to talk about any philosophical issues. However, that very afternoon, the brother went to class and saw the same guy there. He sat next to him and the guy asked this brother if he could have his email; apparently, he has a lot of questions he wants to know about Christianity. PTL!!! Also, an obedient sister talked to this girl for an hour. They will start meeting weekly, attending church, and studying the book of John together. WOW. PTL!!!

but all in all, that day His name and renown were known amongst people who did not know Him. Also, people who knew him, their hearts were challenged that day to be ever more Bold by Standing firm for His name and Renown. That day was a beginning of something so much greater that is still yet to come.

.....PASSION TORONTO!! Here I come!!! tuesday Nov. 22. doors at 6:00 begins: 7:00. (changed time)! Don't miss it guys!!! :)

i think its time for me to update.

Lesson of the day: do you know your enemy?

I wonder if we know who our enemy is; how he works, moves, and speaks. Do you know that we are not warring against flesh, but the rulers, the powers, and the world forces of this darkness? against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places? Do you know that the enemy is working, right here, right now? do you know the things he whispers in your ears. do you see him moving amongst your classroom: in the hearts of the people who are around you. are you constantly on your guard? let alone preaching the word or going out for battle, we need to first know how he tries to bring us down. if we really know how to fight a battle, we would learn and study our enemy and know how he works. Roger said that the way the bank trains people to pick out forgeries is by allowing them to study the REAL (happy jon? geez) thing; they study it soo well that when they see a forged bill, they would know right away. Do we study the enemy so well that when we hear a word from him, we would know it right away? or are we allowing our minds to be his playground?

Then of course there is our God, our victor. Study the enemy well, better yet, study the victor--that in times when we do fall by not recognizing the enemy's scheme; we will recognizing the comforting, conquering voice of our Lord and Saviour.

Few weeks back; I was tempted by our enemy, yet like always, my God came through for me. The Spirit then graced me to write this poem, so i shall share with you all, in hopes that it will encourage you too.

The fiery darts strike once again:
to pierce my heart and to cause it to fear.
Scared of its power, don't want to be burned;
I cried out to him, to make this all end.

In the midst of my fears, the Lord is at hand.
With words of silence, my God has spoken:
"My countless promises cannot be broken;
therefore, with triumph, pick up your shield of faith, and stand!!!"

"....and having done everything, to stand firm.
....in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith, with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one" Ephesians 6:13, 16

on another note, I'm sooo excited for ACF. the Lord is truly working in the hearts of many many individuals. years of labouring are NOT in vain. soo good. guys!! WoHoo! i'm soo excited for men cell; i wish i can join, but i'm not a man, so there you go. If i were a man though, i would join men cell. aiya. i sound like gendi. hahhaha :)

oh yeah ZORRAH! you are sooo awesome. thank you for being such a great friend. you are soo cool! you know i love you soo much. i can't wait till we go to China together and serve the Lord and His people. AHHHH.. soo good! thank you for your constant encouragements!! i'm soo glad that the Lord has answered your prayers; now i know what the Lord meant by "a heart of flesh, " i always wondered until you share with me yesterday. love you soo much! muah!

okay. i should go back to emailing people. ahhhh. soo much emailing. :) but praise God, that i have friends whom i can email to. --> soo gendi again! hahahah. :) love you lots!!!

My thanksgiving weekend...

...indeed one to be thankful for.

Though there are times I rather stay in London, this weekend truly proves the reasons why i miss and loveeee home! My mommy was sooooooooooo extra nice to me. hahah. you know when your parents haven't seen you for like ages? they like glue themselves to you and give you all that you want. that was me!! :) this weekend, my mommy made me turkey. yummyyyy!! even though it was a short period of time, i do indeed treasure every moment spent with family!! okay cut out the sappiness! yeah. this coming weekend its daddy's turn to be extra nice to me. hahahha j/k

Then there are YOU GUYS!!! oh soooooo love you guys! and miss you guys soooooooooooo much!!!

Meeting up with KAT, the vainest person alive, was AMAZING. truly a WOG!!!! thanks for a wonderful time of sharing; it is so encouraging to meet up with you everytime!!! thanks for always encouraging me to go on, even through the toughest times!! The Lord has soo much prepared for you and i'm sooo excited to be able to be part of it. (you know praying.) hahahahahha.:) i got your back woman!! and please, do EAT!!!! :)

and then theres those as MCBC!!! so great to see the PNEUMIES!! oh yeah my conversation with garway on Sunday went something like this.

garway: yeah. i love her, she is sooo cool!
Cora: you love her huh? in what way?
garway: ohhh. more than one ways!

hahahhahah jokes.

and then there's tim and gendU!! and joyce!! and ricky!!! love you guys! you know it. i don't have to blog it. HOOOO. too bad i didn't get to really really really really talk to you guys. well, i did with gendi. that was cool. :) thanks for all your love!! i can feel it all the way here. hahhahaha. God has SOOO much in store for each and one of you. so glad to hear that you are going on with HIM!!! PS: how i wish that tiff would be here..:(

then theres YOU. you know who you are. even though it was hard to talk to you in the beginning, but i'm glad we talked. because we cleared up a lot of things. i love you soo much. and i realized that when it boils down to it--love shall conquer in the end--that no hurt nor disappointment can prevail. all because of HIM. i am still working on things with God, but all in all, He is good and i love you soooo much!! :)

then there are roomies and neighbors who are amazing! yeah turkey once again on monday night! thank you so much dor for such a wonderful meal. love you soo much! oh yeah. you know it! :)

even though i am at a stage where i'm waiting for the Lord to deliver me, but i know He will. :) I love Him!!! i am realizing that there is soo much in my heart that needs to be healed, and He will come and deliver me! :) but at the same time, i realize that there are little steps of obedience i need to take! so my prayer is that i will be obedient!

....so all in all. tis a wonderful, thankful, and amazing WEEKEND!!! all because of HIM!!!

.........................and all of youS!!!

Love. something that is hard to grasp. even more so, something that is hard to do.

O Beloved of my Soul,
This do I desire:
Faith for the impossible,
Love that will not tire.
Jesus, Saviour, Lover, give me
Love for the unlovable,
Love that will not tire.

O Beloved of my Soul,
Yet again I come;
Give me cords of Love to draw
Many wanderers home.
Jesus, Savious, Lover, give me
Love that knows no stain nor flaw-
Love to lead them home.
-Amy Carmichael.

"For I am confident ,of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. For it is only right for me to feel this way about you all, because I have you in my heart..." Phil 1:6-7

Have you ever fervently prayed for someone that resulted in utter disappointment? Does it sometimes seem like its hard to love? Does it seem like your prayers are not been heard? be reminded that "Love will perfect that which it begins. It will not forsake the work of its own hands." -carmichael.

Lord, my prayer is that you will remind me of this everyday. Teach me to love and not grow tired. Teach me to love that knows no hurt nor disappointment. For YOU, O Lord, has burdened my heart for a purpose. O Love of God, cause my heart to say: "His love in me, will not forsake the work of my master's hands."

Sometimes i wonder why i feel this way. I kept asking Him to take it away, yet i just can't help but feel this way. Maybe the problem with me is that i'm too attached, too sentimental... Maybe If i weren't this way, I wouldn't be feeling hurt and utter disappointment right now. In the back of my head, i kept repeating to myself: dead people won't feel the hurt or if i love to be loved, then i know nothing of Calvary's love. I hate it, it just hurts...

...yet maybe i shouldn't be feeling this way. I don't want to feel this way, yet I do. but why? am I selfish then? maybe i'm just too self-centered. urg. sick!

...

lesson of the day:

don't expect much from people, in fact, don't expect anything at all...

...because...

...well, you can fill in the blanks yourself.

i thought...

...but i thought wrong.

..sigh...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i can't even begin to explain the joy that is in my heart!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!! for He is good!!! it was sooo crazy last night; the Lord totally moved!!!!

...kat reminded us (tim and I) yesterady that "today is the day of salvation..." and PTL!!!! because it surely was!!!!! thank you everyone who has been praying!!!!

.....HO!!!!

..........HEY!!!!!!......

....full of just JOY.. during the whole car ride back last night, I was screaming in my car singing: "The enemy has been defeated, death couldn't hold you down, we're gonna lift our voice in victory, we're gonna make our praises loud!!" and then i thought: 'salvation is here, salvation is here and LIVES within!!!" HO Satan, you lose!! HO! Loser!

there is a joy joy joy joy down in my heart. where? down in my heart. where? down in my heart....

"What man among you, if he has a hundred sheep and has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open pasture and go after the one which is lost until he finds it? When he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, 'Rejoice with me, for i have found my sheep which was lost!!' I tell you that in the same way, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance." Luke 15:4-7

...and right now, our Father has found his lost sheep.. PTL!!! and what is our Father doing? REJOICING. along with all the other angels in heaven for his son who has come home!!! Praise be to HIM forever and ever!! AMEN!

i really am going to miss these guys. one of them has already left us. WAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! i never thought that it'll be soo hard to leave toronto.... but this summer, the Lord has really put amazing people in my life and has shown me amazing revelations of things to come.... hmmmm... so torn!!!

so. what to blog about? ........... G O D !!!!!

....i love God. These past few weeks has been rough!!! To sum up everything that has happened with one line, it would be....God is good!!! Yesterday at a prayer meeting, the Lord really spoke to me about an intimate relationship we MUST have with Him. Many times, we talk of things we want to do, such as expanding the kingdom of God for His glory and name. Not that its not good to make an action plan, but i feel like many times we don't reallly expand his kingdom because we don't know where to draw our strength from, or i dare say: without the former, it is impossible to please or to do anything for God. Therefore no action plan could ever work without our intimate relationship with our Lord. Its really easy to write a good sermon, or to plan a good program, but if they are not a mere manifestation of who we are or our intimate relationship with God himself during our quiet times, then i'm sorry to say, they are all for nothing.

....so don't fool ourselves.... its no good.

..... what got me thinking all of this? it was when a friend said to me yesterday: "Cora hears, we need her!" I think its cool and encouraging to hear that, but at the same time, i thought, " shouldn't we all hear? wouldn't it be great if we all do?" Intimate relationship. The Lord desires to speak to ALL of us!

....so i shall leave you all this verse:

...that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with al the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen -Ephesians 3:16-21

... that we may know the Love of Christ through an intimate relationship with Him.....DAILY!!!
...that we will be STRENGTHENED with POWER when we are rooted and grounded in LOVE
....and then what? that we may be able to COMPREHEND with ALL the saints........ His LOVE that surpasses ALL knowledge
....and what? we may be filled up to the FULLNESS of God. wow!
....and i don't think its a coincidence that the next verse comes in right after. because after being filled and grounded in His love, finally the Lord is able to in US, far MORE abundantly beyond all that we ask or think!!!! ...wow. indeed. to Him be the glory!!!

....so how do we expand the kingdom of God? Maybe the first question should be, how can the Lord expand our own hearts?

Its not that she wanted it in the first place, so why does the absence of it leaves her with this nostalgic tugging in her heart? In her mind, she repeats to herself: "you give and take away..." Yet, the questions still lingers on: "if i didn't ask for it in the first place, why did you place it in my life only to have it be taken away?"

..... then the bigger question remains: what about the things i'm praying for in faith...? are they given as well only to be taken away....?

...Lord, in this hour of confusion, may you provide comfort, peace, and the assurance of your love.

me and sonja! love that girl!

i love this picture of mel!

jazz festival in montreal!

our last day..:(

group pic!

we made those hats!

me, sonja, shags!

jazz festival at montreal!!!

nice view!! we bought those swords from the dollar store! greatest investment EVER!!!