...i'm currently in the library right now...suppose to be studying. I can never study in my own room because of my laptop and the internet. And ofcuz, smart cora decided to bring her laptop with her today to the library.....studying?=zero!!! Icq=oh yeah. Blogging=what i'm doing right now.
...and who's fault is it that i'm not studying?? the great invention of wireless network in the library and ofcuz stupid Jesse who told me to bring my laptop here..!!! grrr....
...should go back to studying........stupid bessy is wearing my sunglasses and looking weird and funny. well, he alway looks weird and funny, with or without my sunglasses. I would say that my sunglasses actually makes him look better, cuz it covers half of his face...hahah...he's gonna kill me now!!!...
..anyways..i will go back to studying...bye!!
Thursday, April 10, 2003
Things that are still stuck in my head:
....no longer do I have to try and struggle to please the Lord, It will be Christ who is in me that would be doing it all....Cease Striving!!!!!!!!!.....haha....still can't get over that!!!!!
....we are NO LONGER SLAVES, but daughters and sons.....praise the Lord for that!!!!!!!!
....when we are weak, we are VERY STRONG!!!!
....YEAH!!!!
....happy happy happy happy......
....no longer do I have to try and struggle to please the Lord, It will be Christ who is in me that would be doing it all....Cease Striving!!!!!!!!!.....haha....still can't get over that!!!!!
....we are NO LONGER SLAVES, but daughters and sons.....praise the Lord for that!!!!!!!!
....when we are weak, we are VERY STRONG!!!!
....YEAH!!!!
....happy happy happy happy......
wow, haven't blogged for so long...
-i'm overflowed with joy right now. Thinking of how great and amazing God is. I think He has really blessed our fellowship this year and i am so excited for next year. I mean, God is doing so much already, think about what He will do next year!!!..wow!!! I am so excited...:) I think i'm so happy cuz I see that people are coming to know more about this freedom that the Lord gives us. It is so amazing to see the passion and the desire that people have. Some of the people here really really wants to know the freedom and I know that they will know one day because the Lord is faithful. I'm already so happy knowing that they will know one day, can you imagine when that day comes....i think i'll be so happy that i wouldn't be able to sleep for like 10 days or something...hehehhe!!! The Lord is so good.
-another thing that i think is really cool. I think we've all heard of the verse "be still and know that i am God." But did you know that in the king james version or the NASB version it says "Cease striving, and know that I am God." Isn't it cool? Cease striving, the Lord is telling us to stop doing things or stop striving to do things for Him. Not just that, but He is talking about us trying to be "better", He is telling us to stop. The Lord says acknowledge ME and I'll do everything for you. Stop trying to do it yourself, that will never work. Praise God that I don't have to do anything but acknowledge that He is the one that is doing everything for me. As Paul said, "It is no longer I who lives, but Christ..." Cool...Cease striving...cease striving...yeaH!!! cease striving....COOL!!!!
-i'm overflowed with joy right now. Thinking of how great and amazing God is. I think He has really blessed our fellowship this year and i am so excited for next year. I mean, God is doing so much already, think about what He will do next year!!!..wow!!! I am so excited...:) I think i'm so happy cuz I see that people are coming to know more about this freedom that the Lord gives us. It is so amazing to see the passion and the desire that people have. Some of the people here really really wants to know the freedom and I know that they will know one day because the Lord is faithful. I'm already so happy knowing that they will know one day, can you imagine when that day comes....i think i'll be so happy that i wouldn't be able to sleep for like 10 days or something...hehehhe!!! The Lord is so good.
-another thing that i think is really cool. I think we've all heard of the verse "be still and know that i am God." But did you know that in the king james version or the NASB version it says "Cease striving, and know that I am God." Isn't it cool? Cease striving, the Lord is telling us to stop doing things or stop striving to do things for Him. Not just that, but He is talking about us trying to be "better", He is telling us to stop. The Lord says acknowledge ME and I'll do everything for you. Stop trying to do it yourself, that will never work. Praise God that I don't have to do anything but acknowledge that He is the one that is doing everything for me. As Paul said, "It is no longer I who lives, but Christ..." Cool...Cease striving...cease striving...yeaH!!! cease striving....COOL!!!!
Friday, March 21, 2003
Two things i think that are very very cool....
1.) Did you know that our sins are a debt to God??...a debt??....and the most incredible thing is that He has forgiven our debt!!!!....wow, HE, our God, has forgiven our debt. Things that we owe to Him. This is the freedom God talks about!!! I mean, can you imagine living a life having a load of debts, and owing people things. I mean, for me, i would be so scared and live in a life of fear, guilt...etc...and i'll be so paranoid and...you can image. So why then do we still live in a life full of guilt, shame, fear???...God has freed us and forgiven us of our debts!!!..yeah, so live as if your sins ARE forgiven.....:)..."And the lord of that slave felt compassion and released him and forgave him the debt.~Matthew 18:27. felt compassion and RELEASED HIM!!!!....cool..heh?
2.) Did you know that "the Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." It's so wonderful and assuring to know that cuz we can plead this promise to God when we pray for the unbelievers. The Lord does not show favoritism, He loves "the Christians", the same way that he would love the non-believers. Do not be discourage when we pray for the non-believers/your friends, take comfort that the Lord is not slow in his promise, and He does not want anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. How nice to know that!!!
that's it for me today....wow...thursday nights are the nights that i wonder how i can survive living another day in residence!!!...people are so loud, and drunk!!!..."okay already!! quit knocking on my door at 3 in the morning!!!".....grrr...it's gonna be a long night....
1.) Did you know that our sins are a debt to God??...a debt??....and the most incredible thing is that He has forgiven our debt!!!!....wow, HE, our God, has forgiven our debt. Things that we owe to Him. This is the freedom God talks about!!! I mean, can you imagine living a life having a load of debts, and owing people things. I mean, for me, i would be so scared and live in a life of fear, guilt...etc...and i'll be so paranoid and...you can image. So why then do we still live in a life full of guilt, shame, fear???...God has freed us and forgiven us of our debts!!!..yeah, so live as if your sins ARE forgiven.....:)..."And the lord of that slave felt compassion and released him and forgave him the debt.~Matthew 18:27. felt compassion and RELEASED HIM!!!!....cool..heh?
2.) Did you know that "the Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." It's so wonderful and assuring to know that cuz we can plead this promise to God when we pray for the unbelievers. The Lord does not show favoritism, He loves "the Christians", the same way that he would love the non-believers. Do not be discourage when we pray for the non-believers/your friends, take comfort that the Lord is not slow in his promise, and He does not want anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. How nice to know that!!!
that's it for me today....wow...thursday nights are the nights that i wonder how i can survive living another day in residence!!!...people are so loud, and drunk!!!..."okay already!! quit knocking on my door at 3 in the morning!!!".....grrr...it's gonna be a long night....
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
thoughts and events from the past few days:
-I'm so tired.......i had three hours of sleep last night from doing my psyc report and my calc assignment. And i had a long day today, met up with sonja and planned for women cell. It was really really cool, cuz we didn't plan much, we talked a lot. Sonja is SoOooOOoo cool...:)...i love that girl, she's so cheerful all the time. I talked to her a lot about freedom today. I think it's really cool how my whole world revolves around this freedom that i've been learning, the Lord is so good. And i think that the Lord is slowly spreading this whole freedom thing in ACF. Then after that i met up with cheryl, kendrick and sonja for pre study. The bible study was pretty good, but a bit confusing. It was on Mary and Martha. And Martha is not a bad person!!!! We always assume from reading Luke 10:38-42, that Martha is the bad person. "don't be like martha, be like Mary." But i've learned today that the Lord loves them both equally and that they are each made individually for a purpose. So it's okay to be like Martha or it's okay to be like Mary. Don't try to be someone else whom you're not, (like A.W. Tozer, or Paul, Hudson Taylor...they are so cool.), but just be yourself. . and if sonja is reading this, cuz i gave her the link to my blog today..(speaking with Jesse's tone)...."We need each other!! Yeah!!!(clap,clap) " ...hehhehe
-I've been thinking how it's so cool that i'm not hanging out with the ppl i use to hang out with as much, too cliquey. I shouldn't be mad or dissappointed cuz i don't hang around them as much, cuz this way, i get to know more people..:)..like sonja, heidi, gloria, josh...they are all so cool...:). Yeah!! God did what He did cuz it's better for me...yeah..!!...i'm so tired, i don't think i'm making much sense at all.
-Anyways, had a chance to talk to Lydia yesterday. Wow..for like almost 2 hours on the phone. She's cool..i like her..heheh..she's always been someone that i constantly think about and it's really cool to hear the things that the Lord has been teaching her. She's growing, and i'm so glad that I get to see that and i rejoice so much to see my sister in Christ learning so much about the Lord.
-Ofcuz, Steph as well. That girl, heheh, she is so wonderful...i've been able to witness her growth for the past few years. I still remember the first time she accepted and her eagerness to know more about Him. I think one thing i admire the most about her is her willingness to listen to the things i blab about all the time. hehhehe...
-I've finally shared about the things that has been going on in my life on Sunday. Yeah...for the first time at Roger's, i've shared about the love that the Lord has revealed in me and the fear that He had set me free from. I told Roger that i was scared of him, hehehhe, but not anymore....hahhaha....i think Roger is really really cool...hehehhe, i've been praying for a counselor who would understand me, and God is so gracious. I think now i just have to try to talk to him...like really talk to him....hehhehehe..:). God is so good. Roger was saying on Sunday about how we need to follow our Jesus. When we get to heaven, it's not what we've accomplished that matters to God, but if we had followed Him. Roger said that it's the willingness to follow Him that truly counts. The willingness to give up everything, and i mean, everything, so that we may follow him. And in order to follow Him, we must know Him and be familiar with where He's going. And i've learned that it is okay to say "i don't know", and that we shouldn't planned out our steps or our dreams or what we are going do in the future. cuz..."The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." We should be a mystery...so it is okay to say, "umm..i don't know what exactly i'll be doing this summer." cool..eh??
-And i was surprised when tiff dropped me a note on icq.
"hey cora, just wanted to leave u a msg, a smile and a hug. I know we haven't talked in ages but i want u to know i'm thinking of you and i hope everything's going well. luv ya lots. *hugs*"
ohh...i miss that girl..she's so far away. but that's okay, our prayers will unite us together...:)
-lalala...soooOOoooo tired.
*just some random thoughts, sorry if it didn't make sense...*
-I'm so tired.......i had three hours of sleep last night from doing my psyc report and my calc assignment. And i had a long day today, met up with sonja and planned for women cell. It was really really cool, cuz we didn't plan much, we talked a lot. Sonja is SoOooOOoo cool...:)...i love that girl, she's so cheerful all the time. I talked to her a lot about freedom today. I think it's really cool how my whole world revolves around this freedom that i've been learning, the Lord is so good. And i think that the Lord is slowly spreading this whole freedom thing in ACF. Then after that i met up with cheryl, kendrick and sonja for pre study. The bible study was pretty good, but a bit confusing. It was on Mary and Martha. And Martha is not a bad person!!!! We always assume from reading Luke 10:38-42, that Martha is the bad person. "don't be like martha, be like Mary." But i've learned today that the Lord loves them both equally and that they are each made individually for a purpose. So it's okay to be like Martha or it's okay to be like Mary. Don't try to be someone else whom you're not, (like A.W. Tozer, or Paul, Hudson Taylor...they are so cool.), but just be yourself. . and if sonja is reading this, cuz i gave her the link to my blog today..(speaking with Jesse's tone)...."We need each other!! Yeah!!!(clap,clap) " ...hehhehe
-I've been thinking how it's so cool that i'm not hanging out with the ppl i use to hang out with as much, too cliquey. I shouldn't be mad or dissappointed cuz i don't hang around them as much, cuz this way, i get to know more people..:)..like sonja, heidi, gloria, josh...they are all so cool...:). Yeah!! God did what He did cuz it's better for me...yeah..!!...i'm so tired, i don't think i'm making much sense at all.
-Anyways, had a chance to talk to Lydia yesterday. Wow..for like almost 2 hours on the phone. She's cool..i like her..heheh..she's always been someone that i constantly think about and it's really cool to hear the things that the Lord has been teaching her. She's growing, and i'm so glad that I get to see that and i rejoice so much to see my sister in Christ learning so much about the Lord.
-Ofcuz, Steph as well. That girl, heheh, she is so wonderful...i've been able to witness her growth for the past few years. I still remember the first time she accepted and her eagerness to know more about Him. I think one thing i admire the most about her is her willingness to listen to the things i blab about all the time. hehhehe...
-I've finally shared about the things that has been going on in my life on Sunday. Yeah...for the first time at Roger's, i've shared about the love that the Lord has revealed in me and the fear that He had set me free from. I told Roger that i was scared of him, hehehhe, but not anymore....hahhaha....i think Roger is really really cool...hehehhe, i've been praying for a counselor who would understand me, and God is so gracious. I think now i just have to try to talk to him...like really talk to him....hehhehehe..:). God is so good. Roger was saying on Sunday about how we need to follow our Jesus. When we get to heaven, it's not what we've accomplished that matters to God, but if we had followed Him. Roger said that it's the willingness to follow Him that truly counts. The willingness to give up everything, and i mean, everything, so that we may follow him. And in order to follow Him, we must know Him and be familiar with where He's going. And i've learned that it is okay to say "i don't know", and that we shouldn't planned out our steps or our dreams or what we are going do in the future. cuz..."The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." We should be a mystery...so it is okay to say, "umm..i don't know what exactly i'll be doing this summer." cool..eh??
-And i was surprised when tiff dropped me a note on icq.
"hey cora, just wanted to leave u a msg, a smile and a hug. I know we haven't talked in ages but i want u to know i'm thinking of you and i hope everything's going well. luv ya lots. *hugs*"
ohh...i miss that girl..she's so far away. but that's okay, our prayers will unite us together...:)
-lalala...soooOOoooo tired.
*just some random thoughts, sorry if it didn't make sense...*
Monday, March 10, 2003
I have heard so many songs,
Listened to a thousand tougues,
But there is one that sounds above them all;
The Father's song, the Father's love-
You sung it over me, and for eternity
It's written on my heart.
Heaven's perfect melody,
The Creator's symphony,
You are singing over me
The Father's song.
Heaven's perfect mystery-
The King of Love has sent for me,
And now You're singing over me
The Father's song.
~Matt Redman
Wow...The Lord loves me. I always knew that, but today the Lord really showed me that He loves me. I have mentioned about the freedom that the Lord has been teaching me about. But in order to fully understand this freedom, there is still a lot of "cleaning up" to do, which ofcuz takes a lot of time. The Lord is giving me a new heart, which means that everything of the past must come to an end. Throughout this time, the Lord has been breaking my heart, bits and pieces of my old heart. He has been tearing apart my heart, my life, and to be honest, it's making me bleed and it hurts. But the most incredible thing is that, throughout this whole time, eventhough God is freeing me bit by bit, He has also reassured me of His love for me. I felt His love tonite, I felt the presence of the Lord. I felt His arms around me telling me that it's okay and that He loves me. The first time in my whole Christian walk, I was overwhelmed with joy for who He is and not so much of what He has done or my guilt or whatsoever... The Lord said, "Be still and know that I am God." He does not say, " Be still and know my will for you.." But He said Be still and Know me. Isn't that cool??? Isn't that what we all need to do? To come before the Lord, and acknowledge Him for who He is. And praise and and worship Him for who He is. I really like the song by Matt Redman. It is from Zephaniah 3:17, "The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Wow...God loves us so much that He'll rejoice in us over singing. isn't that like amazing?...God loves you so much that He's probably singing right now about you and me....:)....WOW!!!
I love you Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship you
All my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what you hear
May it be a sweet, sweet sound
In your ear
Listened to a thousand tougues,
But there is one that sounds above them all;
The Father's song, the Father's love-
You sung it over me, and for eternity
It's written on my heart.
Heaven's perfect melody,
The Creator's symphony,
You are singing over me
The Father's song.
Heaven's perfect mystery-
The King of Love has sent for me,
And now You're singing over me
The Father's song.
~Matt Redman
Wow...The Lord loves me. I always knew that, but today the Lord really showed me that He loves me. I have mentioned about the freedom that the Lord has been teaching me about. But in order to fully understand this freedom, there is still a lot of "cleaning up" to do, which ofcuz takes a lot of time. The Lord is giving me a new heart, which means that everything of the past must come to an end. Throughout this time, the Lord has been breaking my heart, bits and pieces of my old heart. He has been tearing apart my heart, my life, and to be honest, it's making me bleed and it hurts. But the most incredible thing is that, throughout this whole time, eventhough God is freeing me bit by bit, He has also reassured me of His love for me. I felt His love tonite, I felt the presence of the Lord. I felt His arms around me telling me that it's okay and that He loves me. The first time in my whole Christian walk, I was overwhelmed with joy for who He is and not so much of what He has done or my guilt or whatsoever... The Lord said, "Be still and know that I am God." He does not say, " Be still and know my will for you.." But He said Be still and Know me. Isn't that cool??? Isn't that what we all need to do? To come before the Lord, and acknowledge Him for who He is. And praise and and worship Him for who He is. I really like the song by Matt Redman. It is from Zephaniah 3:17, "The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Wow...God loves us so much that He'll rejoice in us over singing. isn't that like amazing?...God loves you so much that He's probably singing right now about you and me....:)....WOW!!!
I love you Lord
And I lift my voice
To worship you
All my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what you hear
May it be a sweet, sweet sound
In your ear
Sunday, March 09, 2003
How amazing it is to know that the Lord does not comand us to do something when He does not think that we can do it. I mean, He commands us to be holy and to never sin again because He knows that we are capable of doing so. So why then do we live our lives thinking that it is impossible?? I used to think this way, that I can strive for His commands for me, but never really believing that i could do it as long as I'm in this body, which is of the flesh. But the Lord told me that they are all lies from Satan, all the guilt and fear. God told me that I am born of Him and that I can go on without sinning. He means it literally that I cannot go on sinning and He knows that I can do it because I am now made into a new creation. That is the most amazing thing about God's grace, that He died not only to wash away our sins, but also that our sinful nature may die with Him on the cross so that we can raise again as a new creation. Not to just wash away our past, but to make us anew!!! I mean, how cool is that????
I also find it amazing that His words, or His will for me is not far away so that I have to seach for His "signs". This is the freedom He has given me, that I, who has died to the sinful nature, can live my life without fear or sin because I am now a new creation who is born of the Spirit and that I can trust myself, yeah!!!...i can trust myself. I do not need to live a life in fear of sinning or scare of every move I make in fear that it would not be pleasing to the Lord. The Lord told me that it's okay, I can trust myself for He has put His law in my mind and wirte it on my heart. "Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven, so that you have to ask, "Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?" Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, "Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it" No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it." ~Deuteronomy 30:11-14 Isn't that amazing?? God is so good!!! And He does not only offer this freedom to me, but to all who believes in Him and is born again into a new creation.
Anyways, i hope that's not too much considering that it is my kidda first "real" post!!!! but these are all the thoughts that are running in my head now!!!
I also find it amazing that His words, or His will for me is not far away so that I have to seach for His "signs". This is the freedom He has given me, that I, who has died to the sinful nature, can live my life without fear or sin because I am now a new creation who is born of the Spirit and that I can trust myself, yeah!!!...i can trust myself. I do not need to live a life in fear of sinning or scare of every move I make in fear that it would not be pleasing to the Lord. The Lord told me that it's okay, I can trust myself for He has put His law in my mind and wirte it on my heart. "Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven, so that you have to ask, "Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?" Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, "Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it" No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it." ~Deuteronomy 30:11-14 Isn't that amazing?? God is so good!!! And He does not only offer this freedom to me, but to all who believes in Him and is born again into a new creation.
Anyways, i hope that's not too much considering that it is my kidda first "real" post!!!! but these are all the thoughts that are running in my head now!!!