ran·dom ( P ) Pronunciation Key
(rndm)adj.

• Having no specific pattern, purpose, or objective: random movements.

hmm..random? me? what do you think?

My conversation with Shaggy on msn.
(the past is the past...is me, and shahrukh is, well, shahrukh!) and don't ask about my name, the past is the past, lets leave it there...ok? geez.... heheh

the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
did you get rebecca's laptop?
Shahrukh - ....dnt knw where im going, jst knw i gotta keep on goin says:
i fixed it, also fixed chos comp..
the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
oh really
the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
what was the problem?
Shahrukh - ....dnt knw where im going, jst knw i gotta keep on goin says:
her router wasnt giving her an ip, and chos comp was filled with too mch crap
the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
ohhhh icic....
*cora is nodding in confusion* she thinks to herself, "I know nothing about computers!!" Yet, refuse to feel embarrassed in front of Shaggy, and hoping that he'll never suspect a thing, she says: "ohh..icic, good thing it wasn't that big of a deal.."
then she thought to herself again, "it wasn't, right? hmmm..."
Shahrukh - ....dnt knw where im going, jst knw i gotta keep on goin says:
hahhaha, ure the cutest...
Shahrukh - ....dnt knw where im going, jst knw i gotta keep on goin says:
best reply ever
the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
i should put that on my bog...our conversation..hahah. it'll be funny
Shahrukh - ....dnt knw where im going, jst knw i gotta keep on goin says:
doo it...
the past is the past. lets leave it there! haha! says:
i will..

...and so i did. I thought it was funny, yeah...so don't judge! Its cultural!! Hey, that should be my msn name...
this is what happens to you as a result of lack of sleep and lack of food in your system....

In the midst of emailing my brother, I was inspired to write a poem...again! sorry for all my readers who have to deal with these "spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings" (Wordsworth).

stress,
you thought you got me,
and I thought that I'll be,
but you have no control over me.
because He has set me free
so begone! For I am guaranteed
that He shall continue to deliver me.

stress free!!!

all by the grace of God! Thank you Lord!

essays,
I can't think of you without dismay.
why do you leave me to decay?
as I look into the screen,
confused, I waste away.
I sigh and say:
essays,
keep away,
and make way as I
fade away...

joy of being an English student.

As all the excitement surrounds me, I wonder: "Why don't I get one? Am I not cared for?" I tried comforting myself by saying: "I don't need one, I don't need to be cared for." or "maybe they forgot, its not their fault." Yet, i remain unsatisfied with my reply, something in my heart still yearns for their love, to be cared for. However, I shall retain myself and say nothing more.

Lord, if i love to be loved,
then i know nothing of Calvary love.

Flame Of God

From prayer that asks that I may be
Sheltered from winds that beat on Thee,
From fearing when I should aspire,
From faltering when I should climb higher
From silken self, O Captain, free
Thy soldier who would follow Thee.
From subtle love of softening things,
From easy choices, weakenings,
(Not thus are spirits fortified,
Not this way went the Crucified)
From all that dims Thy Calvary
O Lamb of God, deliver me.
Give me the love that leads the way,
The faith that nothing can dismay
The hope no disappointments tire,
The passion that will burn like fire;
Let me not sink to be a clod;
Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God.

~Amy Wilson Carmichael

By faith, I shall go on
because by His blood,
I am made anew.
I have entered the land, now I shall claim more.
For not yet am I satisfied,
and not yet will I compromise.
For greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world.
He shall sustain me, and by his blood,
i will persevere. And behold,
my brethrens, my joy and crown,
He who is faithful shall bring everything to pass.
Let us go on therefore, in standing firm by faith
and in fighting the good fight, claim the things which
are ALREADY given to us. By faith, WE shall go on.
For His promises shall never fail, all shall come to pass.

yeah! now you can leave me a comment without loging into blogger! it is sooo convenient..*hint* hint*

anyhow, i'm hungry! someone feed me please!!

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

"A nerd indeed," says Sam.

a nerd as me
is inspired by Sidney.
so i shall quote
what he wrote,
and hope that it'll provoke
your excitement to read his poems.
As you read, I shall hope
that they'll do what they did to me:
strike where it hurts and hit home.

"Poetic images should have the power to strike, pierce, and possess the sight of the soul." ~Sir Philip Sidney. (edited by me)

Women Cell was good, I hope the Coffeehouse went well...*sigh*

I am stimulated by Garway's comment, so i decided to blog! Hiatus...ENDS!!!

So as some of may know, this year I have decided to be more involved at school. Why? Simply because i want to get to know more people. Part of being the new "me" means i need to step out and explore. I do have a heavy load this year, and plus being on the exec for ACF and Women Cell do not help lessen my heavy load. At first I thought i would join the newspaper screw since the opportunity came up, yet knowing my ability to write, i decided to wait till next year. Plus, it was not part of my plan anyways! Then i thought, i'll join the Globe: a club where i get to know more about the world around me, but everything started piling up so i decided against it. So i comforted myself by thinking that i would for sure join Get Lit (an English Club), which was something that I wanted to do since the beginning of the year. Even though my heart wants to explore and join more clubs, i know that it'll be best for me to devote myself to one club, Get Lit.
so what happens?

Well, Get Lit has been planning to have a coffeehouse since the end of September and i've been looking forward to it ever since. I was talking to Noah (one of my classmates) about it just tonight about the coffeehouse too. I was really looking forward to it: to meet new people, to do what the Lord has called me to do this year. but...

One ordinary day, Cora decides to check her email and finds out that Get Lit is having the coffeehouse on a Wednesday night, the same night that is scheduled for Women Cell. Joy! Lord, What do you want me to do?

I know, I am such a nerd..
but this is such a beautiful poem.
His name is George Herbert, and he is an AMAZING poet...this is the last poem he wrote before he died.

Love

Love bade me welcome: yet my soul drew back,
Guilty of dust and sin.
But quick-eyed Love, observing me grow slack
From my first entrance in,
Drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning
If I lacked anthing.

"A guest," I answered, "worthy to be here":
Love said, "You shall be he."
"I, the unkind, ungrateful? Ah, my dear,
I cannot look on thee."
Love took my hand, and smiling did reply,
"Who made the eyes but I?"

"Truth, Lord; but I have marred them; let my shame
Go where it doth deserve."
"And know you not," says Love, "who bore the blame?"
"My dear, then I will serve."
"You must sit down," says Love, "and taste my meat."
So I did sit and eat.

isn't it beautiful? wow!!! I hope i can write like that someday.
Yeah!! home for thanksgiving!!! I hope everyone will have a great week.....

yeah!! please leave me a comment..:)

hello...

i'm tired. need to go to sleep. women cell tonight...yeah!!!

I am ready, to start anew.
"Where will you begin?" you may well ask.
"I have no idea," I shall well answer, yet
this is where it shall begin-my heart,
a heart that is ready to be changed...
this, my Lord, is where you shall start...

this blog is up and running again!!!

so why the sudden urge to blog again? to be honest, i have no idea. I just feel like i need to practice my writing skills before writing for my school paper. so if any of you want to correct my writing or give me suggestions of what to write about, feel free to do so, i give you full permission. Please be nice though, thats all i ask.

have you ever wonder about life? life outside of North America? Life beyond what we are use to? after sleepless nights and long hours of reflection, i've come to realize that there is sooo much more to life than what i've known or could ever image. I've decided, and come to a realization that I know Nothing! Absolutely Nothing! i mean, there is soo much in this world, so much to explore, so many things to see. I've been living in this sheltered "bubble" of mine-one that i feel perfectly comfortable to stay in, which is why I needed to get out. I am well aware that the seperation from this "bubble" will result in a new-self, a new me. yet, I want to break from it desperately!!! i'm scared! i'm confused! i'm lost!

My jesus, I love thee, I know thou art mine;
For Thee all the follies of sin I resign,
MY gracious redeemer, My Saviour art Thou;
If ever I love Thee, My Jesus 'tis now.

Hallelujah!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!

....maybe its time for me to start blogging again....hmm...maybe!..we'll see!

sick...boo...bronchitis...sucks!!

blahblahblah....back in london!!!
so much to do!! new house...roomates...blahblahblah...totally different courses..but i love them!!
and God is good!!!...for sure!! praise the Lord! i'm tired....too bad, there is no such thing as sleep when you're a student....back to the books!!!

Went on a one day trip to London on Sunday to hear Roger speak. And let me tell you....it was all worth it.

"The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But it it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.
"Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? 'Father, save me from this hour?' No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!" John 12:23-26.

We must therefore "follow the Lamb wherever he goes....."