blahblahblah....back in london!!!
so much to do!! new house...roomates...blahblahblah...totally different courses..but i love them!!
and God is good!!!...for sure!! praise the Lord! i'm tired....too bad, there is no such thing as sleep when you're a student....back to the books!!!

Went on a one day trip to London on Sunday to hear Roger speak. And let me tell you....it was all worth it.

"The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But it it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.
"Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? 'Father, save me from this hour?' No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!" John 12:23-26.

We must therefore "follow the Lamb wherever he goes....."

my first blog after coming back to toronto....

i'm still trying to adjust to toronto, to church, to no fellowship, to friends.....hmmm...everything seems to be different around here...different, very different. i don't know maybe it is becuz people are busy around this time, but i can't really explain what i'm feeling right now...people are different. It seems to me that my dearest friends who use to be close to me just totally lost interest of what goes on in my life! i don't know....who cares...:)
To the happier note...I had a wonderful time having lunch on thurs. with a dear friend of mine that I haven't talk to for a long long time. I had such a great time!! To be able to talk to a sister of mine and being able to witness the wonderful things that God has been doing in her life. I was amazed at the things that we are able to share with each other..i mean, considering we haven't talk to each other (like real talks) for nearly..hmm...a year and a half? How amazing is that? And it is only becuz of Christ that is in the centre of our friendship that we have so much to share about, and the eagerness to want to know more about what God has been doing in each other's lives. Wow!..3 hours of sharing and no awkward moments....cool...Thank you God for being the centre and the one who binds our friendship together...:)

A.W. Tozer=Amazing Author!!!
"The old cross is a symbol of death. It stands for the abrupt, violent end of a human being. The man in Roman times who took up his cross and started down the road had already said good-bye to his friends. He was not coming back. He was going out to have it ended. The cross made no compromise, modified nothing, spared nothing; it slew all of the man, completely and for good. It did not try to keep on good terms with its victim. It struck cruel and hard, and when it had finished its work, the man was no more. The race of Adam is under death sentence. There is no commutation and no escape. God cannot approve any of the fruits of sin, however innocent they may appear or beautiful to the eyes of men. God salvages the individual by liquidating him and then raising him again to newness of life...."
This is what the cross is about. This is what the cross is truly about..not enjoyment, it is not a "friendly pal", it will not let us keep part of Adam and things of this world.
The one that decides to follow Christ must pick up its Cross. "He must forsake his sins and then go on to forsake himself. Let him cover nothing, defend nothing, excuse nothing. Let him not seek to make terms with God..." Then..."the cross that ended the earthly life of Jesus puts an end to the sinner; and the power that raised Christ from the dead raises him (us) to a new life along with Christ." Dare we preach anything but the truth of the cross.

We Lost!!!!!....now i'm gonna cheer for the senators!!!!

-i'm in the library right now, and sonja is beside me updating her page at the same time...haha, so much for studying again. studying=zero..again!!!!
-let me tell you all something about this girl who is sitting beside me, Sonja.
-she is amazing
-she's got this huge smile on her face at all times. (Seriously, sonja=big smile...you can't seperate the two.)
-she loves God all the time and have such a great passion for Him.
-I could talk to her for hours and hours in the library about the most important thing that matters the most in our lives-Our Father and what He has been showing the both of us!
-see? she just turned to me and told me what she has been realizing in the Lord.
-she is really really cool!!!!....love you sonja!

-yesterday, sonja and I both failed an exam. For all the people who are going to university next year, i'll give you an advice....Calculus is evil!!!!.....don't ever take calculus if you don't hf to!!...stupid cora took the harder course!!!!...boo!!
-anyways..i only hf one more exam left to do, and then i'll be going home....yeah....four whole months of good food.....how great!!!!

-God is so good...there's a lot that He is trying to show me still....i talked to karyn and we are both learning the same thing!!...maybe i'll ask roger on Sunday about it, since i'm staying here till Monday..!!!
-Roger and Pam's=great Sundays..!!!
last Sunday was another great Sunday night at Roger and Pam's. A lot of great things are happening in ACF..and i'm so excited!!...i had a chance to get to know Roger more and talked to him one on one, and that was really really cool!! He is not as scary as we think he is, it's all just the look....deep inside, he is this really cool (sometimes funny) guy!!!...hheheheh..:).
Also, i had a chance to finally talk to Gloria, and she is such a sweet girl. There is so much about this girl that is so amazing!!! She's so cool, maybe one day i'll have a chance to share more about her.
-God is so good to all of us!!!
-anyways, that's it for me now....back to the books..!!

We Won!!!!!!
-such a good game....but we are cutting close....we really need to play a lot better than this....tonite was a good game though..!!!! some bad calls but some good ones as well!!!
haha...studying=zero!! again....and i hf an exam tomorrow

-i'm so tired right now...did a two hour exam today....that was such a bad exam....and i studied too....the exam itself was not bad...it was just toooooo long!!!!....i don't know how my prof would ever thing that anyone could ever finish that exam within two hours....craziness!
-9 hours of exam within 72 hours...and that does not count my studying time.!!!!....
-4 hours biz exam....here i come.....this one i'm gonna fail too....aiya

-pam and roger's yesterday was again really really really good....i am really gonna miss Sunday nights....:(....I really wanna share with everyone about what happened yesterday....but i will some other time.....for now....cora needs to get some sleep so she can write a 4 hours exam tomorrow and after, spend the whole night and the whole day on wednesday to prepare for her calc exam.....!!!!! craziness!!!!....exams are no fun at all!!!!

a post taken from Apr 19 2003

"...We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life..." ~Romans 6:4

When Christ resurrected, we were in Him. We need not try to get in Christ, for we are already in Him. Praise God because we are a new creation!!!..i know i talk about this a lot, but i feel like i should mention it again!!...we are a new creation!!! The nature of God does things that are of God and the nature of Adam does things that are of Adam. but, we have a new creation!!! It is our new nature that do things of God..not by our effort, but because when Christ resurrected, we were there too, we were in Him!!! isn't that cool??...and that is what we must focus on. Not our past, or our "sins"...or in fear that we will sin again because of our "human nature"....i agree that in our "human nature" which is of our old self, we were inclined to sin!!!...but we are a new creation, we died to our old self!!!!....the old has pass and the new has come.....so let us reckon that we are a new creation, therefore it is our nature to do things that are of the Spirit!!!!....this is why Jesus resurrected, so that we may live as a new creation with the Spirit of God that is living in us!!! Praise the Lord!!!

"Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself up for it; that he might sanctify it, having cleansed it by the washing of water with the word, that he might present the church to himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish" ~Eph. 5:25-27. Watchman Nee said that this is what God intends for His children, His church to be..."a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but...holy and without blemish." Watchman Nee said in his book exactly this:
"... And yet how precious is the promise and how gracious are the words used of her (the church): "not having spot"-the scars of sin, whose very history is now forgotten; "or wrinkle"-the marks of age and of time lost, for all is now made up and all is new; and "without blemish"-so that Satan or demons or men can find no ground for blame in her." And this is us!!!!!
This is why Christ died for us and rose again: so that as He is in glory, that we too may appear in glory with Him as well!!! Praise the Lord, Hallelujiah...!!! AHHHH!!!!

another thing.....please go to my friend, sonja's, site and read her testimony!!!

To sonja: Yes..i agree!!!...and i totally rejoice with you!!!..i am so happy that you know..!!!! AHHHH!!!...:)

in the old testament, no one was permitted to enter the Holy of Holies except the high priest, and that was only once a year!

but when Jesus died...
.."And the curtain of the temple was torn in two.."

What is the veil?
-it is our flesh, our sins and everything that seperates us from God.
but where is the veil now?
-And the curtain of the temple was torn in two...it's gone, it has been torn long ago!! it is finished...praise God! When Jesus died, the veil was torn!!! our old self was torn and our sins are torn. What seperates us from God? our sins....but it is TORN!!!! so that their may be no barrier in between us and God!!!..isn't that great!! Praise God!!!

knowing that, I woke up today with such great joy in my heart, i kept thinking about the veil and how it was torn when Jesus died!!! isn't that cool? "...that we may have confidence to enter the holiest by the blood of Jesus.." cool! nothing we do can torn it apart, but only by the blood of Christ, and it is done and over with!!!...yeah, we're dead!!!...but Christ is alive in us!!!....:)

"What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? But no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?......For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, and we should no longer be slaves to sin-because anyone who has died has been freed from sin...." ~Romans 6:3-6 did you notice that it is written in past tense? we died...was crucified....who has died....:) IT IS FINISHED!!!

-anyways...stay tune, cuz i wanna talk about His resurrection too, the part of the Gospel where we should focus on more!!!

Good Friday
-joy, joy, and even more joy!!!

this is what my friend tiff wrote to me:

hey cora...it was sunny and warm at the beginning of the week...then it started to get cloudy...then it rained wednesday and yesterday...i thought of you and how you told me that for the past few Good Fridays it has rained...i'm thinking it just might rain again today....so cool. =0)

"It was now about the sixth hour, and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour, for the sun stopped shining. And the curtain of the temple was torn in two."

...and guess what? it's dark and gloomy outside and it's raining....weird!!!....today is Good Friday, my aspects of Good Friday have totally changed ever since i learnd about the reason the Lord has died for us. Hey, if you guys who are out there who think that they have to be sad and gloomy today like what i thought i had to feel like before...don't!!!..because that's not what it is about!!! Jesus' death should be our joy knowing that He has also resurrected!! And knowing that He died to give us Life!!!! And plus, His death didn't last that long....He rose again!!!! Let us be reminded of His death, not just today, but everyday!!!....The Lord Jesus died for us not just to wash away our sins, but to deal will the root of the problem as well....us!!! He died, so that we may die with Him!!!! So when He died, we died. Watchman Nee said: "When the Lord Jesus was on the Cross all of us died-not individually, for we have not yet been born-but being in Him, we died with Him." And guess what? Jesus has ALREADY died....so it's all done and finished!!!!! Hallelujiah!!!!!.......today is a joyful day!!!!!
If you don't know what i mean about us dying with Him...don't fret..:)....read Romans 4-6!!! Personally note: Romans 7 and 8 is good too!!!...hey, but if you read Romans 7, you better read Romans 8 as well and link them together!!!!!!...cuz a lot of people misinterpret Romans 7 when it is by itself!!!!

anyways...i will write some more tonite...i will speak more about the curtain that is torn then...so say tune!!!

another 12 hours at the library today...

-today was good!!..didn't get as much studying as I hoped i would...ah well. I had a little bible study will sonja today in the library. It's so funny, we can't keep ourselves away from the bible...don't get me wrong, it's a good thing. heheh...i think there was a point when i said: "sonja, we gotta stop talking to each other and study!!!" and then sonja replied: "okay, that's easy, we'll just stop opening our bibles!!!"....heheh...i love that girl!

-I was feeling a bit overwhelmed today about exams and university and my program and so forth. After talking to karyn on the phone, i was just sitting there, thinking a bit...and then suddenly what karyn once said came to my mind, "Whether you know it or like it or not, the Spirit of God that is in you is worshipping the Father right now!!!!" and i was like...yeah, this is the real me, this is my nature....not to worry but I have a new spirit that always, and i mean always worships the Father!!!.my nature is to worship my Father..Praise God!!! but i think it's cool, cuz eventhough in my mind i was thinking about it, but my heart was still at peace. The peace was there all along, becuz Christ is peace, i just needed to remind myself that!!!.
-After knowing that i'm freeD i think i'm starting to live out my life in accordance to the freedom that the Lord has already given me!! I'm learning more to trust myself now, eventhough there are times that i need to remind myself that I am a new creation!..but it's cool! "For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ."~1 Cor 2:16. We have the mind of Christ!!!! yeah!!!! Trust yourself!!!

here karyn, I updated today's blog just for you....

We Lost!!!!
-that was such an intense game...3 overtimes!!!...wow, what a game! eventhough we lost, i must say that the leafs did a pretty good job hanging in there!!!...GO LEAFS GO!!!...oh yeah, did you see Belfour tonite?...man he's good!!!....i've decided that Belfour is my hero....he is really really good...too bad cujo, it could have been you!!!..:)

-wow, spent another 12 hours in the library today......man!!! For all the froshies next year, this is university!!!!
-sitting in the library, i was thinking how quickly this year has gone by, i won't be a froshie no more!! i still remember the first day i moved in here, it seems like it was just yesterday...wow, crazy!!.:). Karyn told me that being a second year is the worst, "You're not old enough to pick on the youngies and you're not young enough to be noticed..." hehe, i thought that was pretty funny!
-i was thinking as well how my life have changed so much, i feel like my life have just begun...and i'm so excited!!!!...everything i see is different now, so different!!!! and it's not like the Lord just showed me parts of Him..but He revealed Himself, meaning everything of HIM...i'm freeD..the Lord is good!

There is one thing that is very very important that all christians must know. We must never focus our lives upon "the sins"....God has dealt with that by sending His son. As watchman nee said, "..but God is saying that we should not make redemption to be everything, as though man were created to be redeemed." No! God came not to just cleanse us from our "sins"...yes, that was part of His death, but that is not everything!!! Therefore there is no condemnation, if God doesn't condemn us, then why do we still condemn ourselves???...we must note that Jesus laid down His life, that life emerged in many lives. That is the ultimate goal, that Jesus died so that we may live in a NEW LIFE!!! and this New Life consists of a new spirit and everything of God..and i'm saying, ONLY things that are of God...isn't that amazing? And not just that, but we already have the new life and it is not by our work, and will never be by our works.. Praise God because I already have all the characteristics of God because it is Christ that is living it out for me!! We are no longer slaves, so stop living as if you are still a slave!!!! "Formerly, when you did not know God, you were slaves to those by nature are not gods. But now that you know God-or rather are known by God-how is it that you are turning back to those weak and miserable principles? Do you wish to be enslaved by them all over again?"
"His purpose was to create in himself one new man out of the two, thus making peace, and in this one body to reconcile(re-conciliation: before we were meant to be with Him) both of them to God through the cross, by which he put to death their hostility." one new man!!!!...,us and Christ=One new man!!!!. Wow!!! God is so Good...!!!!...AHHHHH!!!...

-currently a bit tired...spent more than 12 hours in the library today...feeling a bit overwhelmed with exams( I feel like i dont' know anything)...
-but besides all that studying, something louder speaks in my heart....

God is sooo good....

-did you know that we are no longer slaves, but daughers and sons.....do you know that slaves do not have the same privileges as sons and daughters. sons and daughters can inherit what the Father owns. And we are sons and daughters, we are heirs, so that we may recieve the full rights of sons. The full rights of sons...we have the right to claim what the Lord has already given to us in Christ...which is everything that the Lord has and is. isn't that just so cool. We can call our Lord our Father. Our Father...yeah!
-This freedom is spreading, the good news is spreading among ACFers and i know that this is what God wants...i mean, if you were there in the library today, you will know what i'm talking about....it's like 4 different groups of people talking about the same thing. and then suddenly you hear, "ohh..i think i know", or "i wanna know more..." God is so good.
-i'm full of this unspeakable joy right now......and my only respond is "Praise God...Hallelujiah...!!! I love you Lord!!!"

first thing first...before i forget..:).... Happy Birthday Erica-ca-ca!!!!....wow big two 0!!!!...you're not a teen no more..!!!..:)

GO LEAFS GO....leading the series 2-1...YEAH!!!!...tonite was intense...it was like a 4 hours game....2 overtimes....crazy...so much for studying..!!!

seriously, i'm not getting any studying done. i feeling a bit stress....ahhhh.....no one can get studying done in weldon, cuz everyone is there. i mean, today i kept reading the bookS and sharing it with sonja.....work=zero. learning from school=zero. failing exams=probably. if i get kicked out from university, i don't care, i'm still coming back....this place is too awesome.

but then again, i'll never trade anything for those small talks i had with people in the library.:)...God is still SOOOOoooOOOo Good. today was good, although i didn't get much done.....however, God spoke to me in so many different ways. and it's cool, cuz when i was reading the bible,utmost, and normal christian life.....i kept repeating the same line to myself..."YES...i KNOW....I AGREE..IT"S SO TRUE!!!"....i'm so excited....and so i conclude that today was a good day...even though i didn't study much...:)

"For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory." "You used to walk in these ways....since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator."....past tense!!!!...it's been done

Cease Striving!!!!
Oswald Chambers agrees with me too or more like i agree with him too..heheh, "God's life in us expresses itself as God's life, not as human life trying to be godly."

yeah....19..finally!!

i'm glad...cuz to think back to the last birthday...(we always do that, well, at least i do)....i see how much i've changed. i mean, just the concept of "birthday" changed in my heart. no expectations this year. not wanting to be all about me. everything was different, my heart was so glad that this birthday was not like any other "birthdays" i had in the past. i have changed a lot. and the best part is....I LOVE IT!!!

let me tell you a bit of what happened on my birthday:
-well yesterday, we went to Rockwaters...we had yummy ribs and watched a movie. "how to lose a guy in 10 days.."
-after dinner, they(my friends) got me a piece of cake and they sang happy birthday, but that wasn't it, they got the "piano guy" to sing happy birthday as well. i thought that was cool.
-today, (my actual birthday), i went to church, then had lunch with friends and then went to study at weldon.
-after that, i went to Roger's and Pam's for bible study...like what i do every Sunday. At the end of the meeting, they got me two huge cakes and we celebrated again.
-oh yeah...i got a huge rock as a present...painted...it says C-19 on it...heheh...it was so heavy. And i also got other presents..like a book from sonja, picture frame with picture from jesse, and another picture frame with pictures inside from glen, jus, caleb, and cho...hehe..Thankx guys.

This past week has been full of JOY and JOY and more JOY. I had a privileged to witnessed this week the greatness of my Father and to see Him move so evidently in someone's life. i saw with my very own eyes, my brother in Christ, finally "knowing" this freedom. The power that the Lord has over someone's heart is so great and evident that we can't deny His love. Isn't that incredible? Tonite was really really amazing...to see three people coming to know and so much more wanting to know. And I KNOW that they will know. All this knowing...hehehe. But God is so AWESOME...so AMAZING. He is my father, and praise God that I am His daughter. And this sonship is not just for me....but for EVERYONE who believes in HIM. PRAISE GOD!!!! We are no longer slaves, but daughters and sons..when we weak, we are VERY strong.!!!!....if the son has set you free, you SHALL be free INDEED!!!....duh!!!!!...hhehehheeh.....this, i would say, is the best birthday present ever!!!!!!!!.....and you know, it's gonna keep coming...i'm expecting God to do more...He is gonna give people a new heart and to reveal to them that HE HAS DONE IT ALREADY!!!!!.....yea...CEASE STRIVING!!! praise God!!!!

-oh yeah...gotta thank bessy for teaching me how to change the colors and the font size for this page.....

...i'm currently in the library right now...suppose to be studying. I can never study in my own room because of my laptop and the internet. And ofcuz, smart cora decided to bring her laptop with her today to the library.....studying?=zero!!! Icq=oh yeah. Blogging=what i'm doing right now.

...and who's fault is it that i'm not studying?? the great invention of wireless network in the library and ofcuz stupid Jesse who told me to bring my laptop here..!!! grrr....

...should go back to studying........stupid bessy is wearing my sunglasses and looking weird and funny. well, he alway looks weird and funny, with or without my sunglasses. I would say that my sunglasses actually makes him look better, cuz it covers half of his face...hahah...he's gonna kill me now!!!...

..anyways..i will go back to studying...bye!!

Monkeys: Top (L to R) Karyn, Cora Jesse
Bottom: Debbie, Alex, Cheryl

Things that are still stuck in my head:

....no longer do I have to try and struggle to please the Lord, It will be Christ who is in me that would be doing it all....Cease Striving!!!!!!!!!.....haha....still can't get over that!!!!!

....we are NO LONGER SLAVES, but daughters and sons.....praise the Lord for that!!!!!!!!

....when we are weak, we are VERY STRONG!!!!

....YEAH!!!!

....happy happy happy happy......

wow, haven't blogged for so long...

-i'm overflowed with joy right now. Thinking of how great and amazing God is. I think He has really blessed our fellowship this year and i am so excited for next year. I mean, God is doing so much already, think about what He will do next year!!!..wow!!! I am so excited...:) I think i'm so happy cuz I see that people are coming to know more about this freedom that the Lord gives us. It is so amazing to see the passion and the desire that people have. Some of the people here really really wants to know the freedom and I know that they will know one day because the Lord is faithful. I'm already so happy knowing that they will know one day, can you imagine when that day comes....i think i'll be so happy that i wouldn't be able to sleep for like 10 days or something...hehehhe!!! The Lord is so good.
-another thing that i think is really cool. I think we've all heard of the verse "be still and know that i am God." But did you know that in the king james version or the NASB version it says "Cease striving, and know that I am God." Isn't it cool? Cease striving, the Lord is telling us to stop doing things or stop striving to do things for Him. Not just that, but He is talking about us trying to be "better", He is telling us to stop. The Lord says acknowledge ME and I'll do everything for you. Stop trying to do it yourself, that will never work. Praise God that I don't have to do anything but acknowledge that He is the one that is doing everything for me. As Paul said, "It is no longer I who lives, but Christ..." Cool...Cease striving...cease striving...yeaH!!! cease striving....COOL!!!!

Two things i think that are very very cool....

1.) Did you know that our sins are a debt to God??...a debt??....and the most incredible thing is that He has forgiven our debt!!!!....wow, HE, our God, has forgiven our debt. Things that we owe to Him. This is the freedom God talks about!!! I mean, can you imagine living a life having a load of debts, and owing people things. I mean, for me, i would be so scared and live in a life of fear, guilt...etc...and i'll be so paranoid and...you can image. So why then do we still live in a life full of guilt, shame, fear???...God has freed us and forgiven us of our debts!!!..yeah, so live as if your sins ARE forgiven.....:)..."And the lord of that slave felt compassion and released him and forgave him the debt.~Matthew 18:27. felt compassion and RELEASED HIM!!!!....cool..heh?

2.) Did you know that "the Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." It's so wonderful and assuring to know that cuz we can plead this promise to God when we pray for the unbelievers. The Lord does not show favoritism, He loves "the Christians", the same way that he would love the non-believers. Do not be discourage when we pray for the non-believers/your friends, take comfort that the Lord is not slow in his promise, and He does not want anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. How nice to know that!!!

that's it for me today....wow...thursday nights are the nights that i wonder how i can survive living another day in residence!!!...people are so loud, and drunk!!!..."okay already!! quit knocking on my door at 3 in the morning!!!".....grrr...it's gonna be a long night....

...:)...yeah....it's working again